Say I Love You When You're Not Listening

Not only is this video beautifully crafted, but it's the perfect soundtrack of my world right now. Now that the "Winter" chapter has closed, I'm struggling to get a hold on my reality again. I've spent the last few nights crying it out to patch myself together for the next day. I think mostly, I'm in shock that it has come to an end. I lived in one space for three weeks, non stop, with the same fifty people and learned to become a family. Now? We're separated, back into the routine we were in months ago. Just a few more hand prints on our hearts.

I don't know how past senior felt, graduating from their very last high school musical, but for me this is one of the tallest hurdles to get over. As wonderful as pictures are, nothing will match that feeling that this cast brought. I found a home a tad too late to enjoy. I apologize to those for my snappiness, my bitter comments. I do love you, but I'm human. And I need sleep to function. Unfortunately, I'm not having the best luck finding that, even after I've put away the makeup kit, put the tap shoes to bed.

"Aren't you Don Lockwood?"

"So's your Aunt Tilly!"


"Make sure to keep my distance, say I love you when you're not listening." 

It's the only thing I've got anymore. The memories of all the loving, caring, sweetest people that I've hand the honor to meet and get to know over the course of the last three months. If I could tour with that cast, I'd be the happiest girl on the planet. I would never get sick of it. But, because life is made of beginning's and endings. It's time for me to say goodbye to the happiest moments of my senior year, and say hello to the sun rise just around the corner. This won't be the first goodbye I have to make, nor will it be the last. But I am loved, and in the end, that's what matters.